Life reali sux lyk hell lol..nth is worth livin for..all the class rankin and hell stuf is juz to tell me "u r S-T-U-P-I-D!!!!!" lol!!!! ...sighzzz...life is meaningless..we r alwayz livin for others..wat kinda logic is this lolx..Nvm..everythin seems to be borin n meaningless to me nowadays..theory exam tmr..n wat preparation hav i done..cl o's nxt mon..n now only at 1B..N wat m i doin now?? updatin my blog in the SCH library..as if it cld do any help n creat miracles lolx..everyone seems to be disappointed in me..wat m i doin..i wonder..oh yes..juz rmbed tt i gotta live for myself n forget wat others tink bout moi..life sux..il be no longer afraid to go to hell..coz im ald used to livin in hell..kkk..cant say dis kinda things..life is a torture..y do we hav to go thru all this..so tired of life..although its juz a mere 15 yrs..life sux.. I HATE IT!!!! i still wanna yinju..goin back to shanghai nxt wed..not reali lookin forward lolx..il miss everythin back here..i noe i shlnt say all these selfish thingie..but tts wat im sayin for MYSELF!!!il miss my dear dear chingus..n kopfkissen..sigh..il reali reali miss them lol..ppl do change..n my god!!! He cut his hair AGAIN!!! hahax..he juz cut it a wk ago lolx..jj says tt he juz wanna make himself more "dull" so that we wont trail me n "spy" on him..hahax..but stil blindingly bright to me lol!!! hahax..dun bother bout me..moi juz blabberin crap to cheer myself up..this kinda results can make wudanyiqianish ppl commit suicide lolx!!K y i mention her..fil disgusted..how how how how how how how how..juz waitin for mon to come to an end n tts when iv died for eveythin n can START to STOP worryin day n night..let me comment abt this yr..the startin of the yr was so nice everyday was a breeze..goin out every wk n doin ok for my tests..tt was wat i call LIFE lol!!! But eva since after the mid yrs hols..things changed..drastically..nth seems to be doin rite..even my dear dear music..so now im tellin myself everyday-u can do nothin else to 2004 ald..juz pray hard tt 2005 wld be a gd n great one for u..i noe tt dis kinda mindcept in toatally wrong!wrong!wrong! but wat else can i tink to keep myself fr literallly commitin suicide..after ge almost "bottom 10" of the class..i wonder y didnt cry..tis the firz tym i actually gota an average score below 70..i told jj i hav neva cried in dhs..she doesnt belive me..but its true..its a hard fact..i may hug my kopfkissen at nite and cry..but il neva cry at sch..tink coz i neva want to show my flns..juz dun want others to noe wat im tinkin n how im flning ..esp when i feel sad..coz i juz cant stand the fln of being comforted by others n oso hate to see others being unhappy coz of me..yes i noe i still havent changed..i reali hate to upset others..(anyone readin dis shld be snorin aldzzZZZZ)..anw..k i feel much beta..but come to tink of the up comin exams..i can only say life sux lyk hell!!!! i wanna SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Be happy!!! It's a sin to feel blue and miserable..isn't it..??? why not just keep a permanent smile on your pretty face that won't be very difficult.. It's just a muscle exercise, that will keep you young and happy...
