More than half of the holiday has passed unconsciously..but who cares..hols are even worse than school days it seems..at least u can leave ur brains at home when u go to school and dream in class..u only have to do some work after u come back from school and during the test..but during hols..u are with ur brain whole day long..not that you want it..esp for people like me, who are forbidden from going out..but one thing good about this hols is that i finally started doing SOMETHING to my o's..couldnt believe it my god..i have completed 3 setss of emaths papers..2 sets of amaths paper..3 sets of chem papers and 2 sets of physics papers..amazing huh..i've been soooooooo industrious is mainly cuz i doubt i stand any chance for DSA into hwa chong...just saw on the papers today that over 300 students applied for DSA into hwa chong and i estimated that they will only take in 150 applicants at most..am i amongst the top 50% of the applicants?? hahax...jj is certainly having a REAL holiday in China..she's been asking me to call her..and i've called once las week with my mum's permission.. then days ago she did something really amazing with i was greatly astounted by..so she asked me to call her to tell me the whole story.. i waited for the rare chance of being at home alone..in the end i called her up just a few minutes ago and goodness..she told me she was taking neoprints..and the calling card only had 19 minutes plus left..thats definitely not enough for a usual chat..i knew my mum is going to question me when she uses the card...just as predicted..i used up the entire 19minutes..then i felt like a thief who has just committed a theft..that guilt was really a burden sinking into every grooves of the brain..really..im not exaggarating at all..so i was thinking shall i just dump it into a bin and make my mum think that its lost?? no no..my mum knows me too well..the prob here is that my dad is not in town again and if he was the one who finds out that the credit is now 0..he wont realize the irony since he rarely pays any attention to such matters..but my mum..its a completely different case..or shall i admit to her?? then she''ll never trust ne and leave me alone again and will think that i always do "illegal" things behind her back..so how.. i used an eraser to erase the last number of the pin..so that the next time she uses it..she'll be informed that the pin is incorrect...but thats not an ingenious idea at all..the pin is in 3 groups of 4 digits..i should have erased the first digit to make it less obvious..but no matter which digit is erased my mum will sense aomething fishy tho she may not think im behind it and certainly it is not a right thing to do at all..i dont know how am i going to tolerate the guilt when i see my mum using this card..can i say im sorry? no use writing it down here...
Be happy!!! It's a sin to feel blue and miserable..isn't it..??? why not just keep a permanent smile on your pretty face that won't be very difficult.. It's just a muscle exercise, that will keep you young and happy...
